What I miss…

by amodelsroaccutanejourney

Now that I have acne I miss:

1. Tying my hair up
I now hide my face behind my hair so people don’t notice my spots. Now it’s winter I have even taken to wearing a scarf to hide my lower face. I feel if my hair looks nice everyone will look at that instead of my spotty skin.

2. Wearing no make up
I never ever leave the house without a face full of make up. I have to be slathered in foundation and concealer to feel confident enough to leave the house. I even slap on the make up to go out for a jog. This may sound rediculous and self-obsessed to some but I simply can’t face the stares and I guess what may be going through people’s minds when they see my dreadful skin. I even have to put my make up on to walk my dog. In return my poor little dog has to wait to be walked and fed until I’m happy with my face 😦

3. Feeling confident
I have become so un-confident since having acne. I have become insular, introverted and self-conscious. I hate feeling this way, especially as I need e confident for my job (modelling and acting!). This lack of confidence has in turn begun to effect my work to quite an extent!

4. Smiling a lot
I used to smile but now, it takes quite a lot to make me 100% happy.

I can’t wait for the day my spots have disappeared!